Senin, 07 Oktober 2013

Negeri Sakura dan Doraemon

Udah 18 bulan aku disini untuk menyelesaikan masterku. Sejak april 2012. Dengan berbagai pertimbangan akhirnya April 2013 aku di temenin kedua anakku (Qiqi dan Khaka) untuk berjuang disini. Ternyata semua rencana yg kubayangkan dan kuangankan tidak semua berjalan mulus disini. Mengerjakan sesuatu sendiri, capek secara fisik dan mental, semua mempengaruhi kondisi mentalku. Aku menjadi tambah emosional. Sampai akupun takut akan kondisiku sendiri. Apartemen nyewa dgn banyak aturan dan ketidaknyamanan jika kotor or rusak membuatku tambah sensi. Sedangkan anak-anak masih belum bisa memahami itu bahwa tempat tinggal yg sekarang ini nyewa dan harus dikembalikan dalam kondisi bersih. Sekarang pun udah banyak coretan di sana sini. Suka merasa bersalah, inginku memberikan pengalaman yg menyenangkan tapi yg ada mereka tertekan. Merasa udah salah mengambil keputusan, tapi apa boleh buat kalo aku kembalikan ke Indonesia juga akan berentet masalah yg timbul. Qiqi sampai bilang "kalo bunda nanti sekolah ke luar negeri lagi aku ga mau ikut, aku di Indonesia aja". Betapa tertekannya dia. Dia suka membandingkan kenapa ayah tidak beserta kita. Tetapi dengan banyak alasan pun ayahnya memang tidak bisa menemani kecuali nanti 3 bulan terakhir. (alasan yg sampai saat ini pun aku ga bisa trima n menyebabkan pertengkaran di antara kita).
Karena harus menghandle smua sendiri, aku merasa sekarang aku seperti devil meski ke anakku sendiri. Aku menangis, aku takut, aku butuh orang yg bisa membantu tidak hanya bilang sabar. Aku minta maaf setulus-tulusnya kepada kedua anakku, aku ga bisa jadi ibu yg lemah lembut, aku ga bisa mengutarakan rasa sayangku dgn benar, aku menuntut kalian mengerti dan kesalahan2 yg mungkin akan membekaskan luka buat mreka. Aku juga mengalami hal serupa tapi kenapa aku masih mewariskan hal yg sama pada anakku.
Ketahuilah anakku aku sayang dengan kalian, semoga Allah menjaga kalian, perjuangan ini membuat kalian kuat. Maafkan bunda ya sayang. Bunda tidak seperti harapan kalian. Bunda ga bisa mendidik kalian dgn baik.
I love you.

Selasa, 04 Oktober 2011

Just for fun

After I looked at my friend's blog, I found it and I'm interested to try. What is it?

Your IQ Is 100

Your Logical Intelligence is Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius
Your General Knowledge is Above Average

Your Irish Name Is: Isobel Kennedy

"What butter or whiskey does not cure cannot be cured."

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

It's Difficult For You to Fall in Love

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Hidden Talent is Your Quick Wit

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant-Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

You Are 36% Happy

You're not miserable, but you could stand to be a lot happier.Focus on what's right in the world, and you'll be happier than you ever thought possible.

You Are Pesto Pizza

Adventurous and hedonistic.You live for new experiences and tastesAnd you're not the type to have your pizza the same way twice.If they can put it on pizza, you're up for trying it!

Your Heart Takes Love Seriously

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 9/10 correct!

Your Japanese Name Is: Hiroko Nakayama

Banzai!



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Senin, 06 Juni 2011

My assignment to write my feeling

This is my written to complete my assignment from my teacher. This written talks about my feeling when i knew my result for my first IBT Toefl test and this written has had checked by my best teacher. Thanks a lot Ms. Wina.

This morning I knew my result for the first IBT Toefl Test that I took on April 23. The score is 72 so I have not achieved the required score yet which is 79. Actually, this is my first failure and hard for me to accept it. I am very sad and disappointed. I am a perfectionist person that usually have a high target, not only to pass the test but also to achieve the best result. However, in English I must deal with my weakness and my problem so my target is just to pass the test. In fact, I have not decided yet whether I will continue my study in Japan or not because of my personal problem. I believe that God will lead me to the best way of life. I just pray to God to help me do the test easily if God wants me go to Japan and to give me strength if I have to accompany my children and study in a local university. My mother and husband also support me although I fail. Because of them, I can release my sad feeling and I can smile today, although I am really so upset. This is the first time I can accept my failure with open heart. I hope this experience can make me wiser as a parent for my children.

Now, I must move on. I still have the second chance so I must use it to achieve the required score. My best teacher, Ms. Wina decides a new target, which is 81. Honestly, I want to achieve 85. Hopefully my dream will come true. When Ms. Wina said that we have to take the second test on July, I am a little bit sad, because at that time my husband will have already gone to Australia so he cannot give me support and accompany me to go to the test centre.

According to the explanation of the ETS, I have to improve my grammar, vocabulary, and develop my idea. From the part of IBT Toefl Test, my lowest score is in reading section. Actually, I knew it since I did some practice tests I used to get the lowest score in reading. I have difficulties in grasping the main idea and answering inference. My husband said that I have to read more academic materials. Unfortunately, I am very lazy to do it. I also agree with Sokhid’s opinion that we need more time to learn individually that I cannot get it from this training program. My husband advises me to study at night when my children sleep, but I do not do it because I feel so exhausted and I choose to sleep as well. When Ms. Wina proposed to improvise the schedule, I am very glad. Four hours we will study in class and the rest we can do self-study, I think this is a good idea so I have more time to study individually and decide the best way I learn English. Hopefully it can help me improve my English. Last but not least, I’m gonna let God to take care the result. Although, I know that I look like no spirit in my prayer, I think this is the best way I can do because I am still worried about my family if I have to go to Japan.

Rabu, 20 April 2011

Count down.....

Today, my husband are 30 years old and i don't give any present for him even i just said happy birthday in normal way in the morning.I mean it was not romantic. I'm sorry my dear. Now, I'm just thinking on me. Next Saturday, I am going to do my first IBT Toefl test. Honestly, it is hard. I don't feel having good ability in English. You really know how poor my English. It is also harder because of my characteristic. I'm a perfectionist woman. I want the best result in everything. I'm not ready if i have to fail this exam. Moreover, I never experienced it before not only the test but also fail the exam. I know that I have had pray for the best way of my life, I believed that Allah SWT always give me the best for everything include for my future, but until now, i can't manage my heart. I can't enjoy the training, I get depress on the test. God, please, help me, lead me, to do the best for the test and not thinking about the result because You know the best future of me. If I should continue my study overseas, please help me passing the test. On the other hand, if I should continue my study here, please give me strenght to faced the failed. Amin.

Kamis, 27 Januari 2011

Khalifa Azzam Wiratama

Since six months ago I had become a mother of two children. My second child is a boy. His name is Khalifa Azzam Wiratama, but we call him "Khaka". He was born on July, 5, 2010. His weight and long was 3,5 kilograms and 50 centimeters. Now Khaka is six months and twenty one days old. He had already graduated from bachelor degree of exclusive breast milk. Since nineteen day ago, Khaka had eat pulp and puree combined with milk. Thanks God, Khaka was a good learner, so Khaka was a good eater. Now Khaka eats pulp or puree plus milk three times a day and fruit at 3 pm. But, I'm sad to know that the weight of Khaka does not increase in two months. Perhaps, it caused by Khaka does not drink milk as much as his sister Khaka. I hope Khaka will always health although he just try to eat and he drinks a few milk. I love you Khaka.

Senin, 24 Januari 2011

Comunication

What do you think about communication? Do you think it is important for us? And how about real communication and virtual communication?
Developed gadget causes people can communicate with everyone, everywhere, and every time. It's good for transferring information real time, but sometime it's disturbed everybody around you actually when you are walking on the street. Because you are busy with your gadget, then you can crash somebody else. Something like that had been happened in my office, when i had milked. We were in the same room together but i felt just me in the room and nobody else. The room was so quiet. What she was think about it? I knew that she was busy with her virtual communicate. I was hate the gadget caused somebody was not care with their environment. I'm just trying to write in English.

Kamis, 20 Januari 2011

Jari dan lututku

Udah sejak dari tahun 2007 mungkin aku sering merasakan kekakuan sendi, sampe bengkak. Aktivitasku jd terganggu. Semua itu datang dan pergi tanda diundang n dianter (kayak maen jalangkung aja :)). dari mulai jempol sampai sekarang yg sering kumat jari tengah tangan kanan n lutut kaki kanan. udah ke dokter n pijit segala. tp tetp blm sembuh secara total. udah tes darah segala. tapi ga th bagaimana selanjutnya. sampai akhirnya kmrn ke dokter Muh. Azwar di RSIB, dokter spesialis penyakit dalam konsultan remautologi. Dokternya memberikan suntikan di 3 tempat. Lutut sebelah kiri n kanan, n telapak tangan deket jari tengah yg sakit.
Sekarang Alhamdulillah sudah membaik n kata dokter kena radang otot karen pernah trauma. Tp belum puas dgn penjelasannya krn pengobatannya cuma berhenti disitu aja. Tar kalo kumat berarti harus suntik lg. Males bgt kan. Apalagi mahal. Biaya konsultasinya aja 200rb, jasa menyuntik di 3 tempat 300rb, obatnya yg disuntikkan cuma 95rb. berat diongkos. Akhirnya kmrn browsing2 nemu artikel ini, sedikit beda tp kok kayaknya cocok. jd kucopy aja buat referensi :)ARTHRITIS atau radang sendi merupakan penyakit yang disertai dengan gejala-gejala yang bisa sangat mengganggu aktivitas keseharian. Radang sendi ini biasanya ditandai dengan kemerahan, kekakuan, pembengkakan dan rasa sakit di area persendian. Radang sendi ini bisa dibedakan menjadi 3 kelompok yaitu rematik arthritis yang biasanya menyerang persendian jari, pergelangan, lutut dan jari kaki. Akan tetapi, bukan berarti kalau bagian persendian lainnya di seluruh tubuh bebas sepenuhnya dari serangan.

Kedua adalah osteoarthritis yang bisa menyerang persendian manapun tetapi biasanya terjadi pada pinggang, lutut, kaki dan tulang belakang. Selanjutnya adalah encok yang seringkali menyerang anggota tubuh bagian bawah dan target utamanya biasanya adalah jari kaki. Rasa sakit akibat encok bisa sangat parah sehingga tersentuh kaus kaki atau sprei saja sakitnya bisa tidak tertahankan.

Untuk mengatasi sakit ini, biasanya dokter akan memberikan obat tertentu. Tetapi, diluar itu, Anda bisa membantu meredakan sakit dengan melakukan berbagai upaya pengobatan alternatif yang bisa Anda lakukan sendiri di rumah. Berikut beberapa pengobatan sederhana yang bisa Anda coba untuk meredakan sakit akibat radang sendi.

1. Pengobatan alami dengan kayu manis

Studi-studi telah menunjukkan, kayu manis merupakan pengobatan alami yang efektif untuk meredakan sakit akibat radang sendi. Tambahkan 1 sendok teh bubuk kulit manis ke dalam 1 sendok makan madu setiap pagi sebelum sarapan. Lakukan setiap hari selama 1 bulan. Anda sudah akan bisa merasakan hasilnya dalam 1 minggu pertama.

2. Pengobatan alami radang sendi dengan garam epsom

Garam epsom atau yang dikenal juga dengan garam inggris mengandung magnesium tinggi. Magnesium, pastinya Anda sudah tahu, sangat penting untuk pertumbuhan tulang dan mengatur kadar pH tubuh. Kekurangan magnesium akan menurunkan kemampuan tubuh menyerap dan menggunakan kalsium serta fosfor, 2 mineral dasar pembangun tulang.

Cara pengobatan alami berikut bisa digunakan untuk mengurangi gejala yang berkaitan dengan radang sendi. Tapi jangan lupa, jika Anda menderita penyakit jantung atau ginjal, berkonsultasilah dengan dokter terlebih dahulu sebelum mencoba pengobatan ini. Kelebihan magnesium bisa memicu diare, pusing, kram, melemahnya otot, serta jantung tidak normal.

  • Campurkan 3 sendok makan jus lemon segar dan 3 sendok makan garam epsom ke dalam 0.56 liter air hangat. Minulah 1 sendopk teh di pagi hari dan 1 sendok teh di malam hari.
  • Tambahkan 3 cangkir garam epsom ke dalam bak mandi ber-air hangat dan berendamlah di dalamnya. Magnesium dalam garam akan diserap tubuh dan akan merelakskan persendian dan otot-otot yang kaku.

3. Cegah dan atasi radang sendi dengan minyak hati ikan cod

Penelitian telah menunjukkan, mengonsumsi minyak hati ikan cod dalam jumlah kecil setiap hari potensial menurunkan kerusakan tulang rawan, yang merupakan salah satu gejala utama osteoarthritis. Selain itu, asam omega-3 yang terkandung dalam minyak bisa membantu mengurangi rasa sakit dan peradangan akibat radang sendi. Karena itu, akan sangat menguntungkan jika Anda bisa menambahkan 1-2 sendok teh minyak hati ikan cod ini dalam kehidupan Anda sehari-hari.

4. Lakukan peregangan lembut

Peregangan berfungsi untuk menguatkan dan meningkatkan mobilitas. Olahraga kadang menjadi dilema jika dihadapkan dengan radang sendi. Bergerak sakit, tapi tidak bergerak juga akan merusak. Gerakan yang tidak tepat bisa membahayakan, tetapi gerakan yang tepat bisa menyembuhkan. Cobalah melakukan yoga. Yoga biasanya mengajarkan gerakan dengan jajaran persendian yang tepat sehingga bisa membawa sendi yang salah kembali ke posisi normal saat otot-otot diregangkan dan dikuatkan. tapi jangan lupa, yoga cerdas adalah kunci mengembalikan kesehatan. Tapi, pastikan Anda melakukannya sesuai dengan batas-batas penyakit Anda.

5. Redakan sakit dengan kurangi stres

Jika Anda merasa sakit dan bertambah tegang, maka Anda akan merasa semakin sakit. Mereka yang bisa mengontrol segala hal dalam kehidupannya juga lebih bisa mengontrol rasa sakit dibandingkan mereka yang tidak. Penelitian menunjukkan pentingnya sikap psikologis dalam meredakan sakit akibat radang sendi. Jika menderita radang sendi, Anda harus bisa belajar memahaminya. Jangan memaksakan diri mengerjakan semua hal saat Anda tidak merasakan sakit. Hal ini akan membuat Anda kelelahan dan kesakitan di hari berikutnya. Lakukan sedikit demi sedikit setiap hari, baik saat mengalami sakit ataupun tidak.

Belajarlah untuk relaks. Jika Anda fokus pada rasa sakit, maka akan terasa semakin sakit. Tapi, jika Anda sibuk dengan hal lain yang penting bagi Anda, Anda tidak akan terlalu merasakan sakitnya.

6. Cegah kaku di pagi hari

Hampir 90% pasien radang sendi merasa kaku di pagi hari. Untk menghindari ini, oleskan salep di malam hari sebelum tidur. Ini akan membuat Anda relaks serta menguatkan Anda secara mental. Penderita radang sendi umumnya merasa lebih baik sepanjang hari jika mereka merasa tidak kaku saat bangun di pagi hari.

7. Berendam di kolam

Studi-studi telah menunjukkan, mengapung di kolam, khususnya di kolam yang sudah didisain khusus dengan suhu yang telah disesuaikan bisa meredakan sakit akibat radang sendi. Dengan berendam, stres akan berkurang, maka rasa sakit juga akan berkurang. Saat mengapung, tubuh akan relaks, otot-otot juga relaks, dan hal ini akan menstimulus pelepasan endorphin, penghilang rasa sakit alami tubuh. Suhu yang disesuaikan dengan suhu kulit juga akan membuat Anda benar-benar relaks.

8. Cegah sakit dengan es

Persendian akan sakit jika digunakan secara berlebih. Untuk mencegah hal ini, kompreslah persendian dengan kantung berisi es selama 15-20 menit. Kemudian angkat es dan bisa diulangi lagi setelah 10-15 menit.

9. Jus sayur

Jus sayur secara signifikan terbukti mengurangi rasa sakit pada pasien penderita rematik arthritis. Anda bisa menggunakan jus wortel, jus seledri, jus kol, atau jus tomat.