Count down.....

Today, my husband are 30 years old and i don't give any present for him even i just said happy birthday in normal way in the morning.I mean it was not romantic. I'm sorry my dear. Now, I'm just thinking on me. Next Saturday, I am going to do my first IBT Toefl test. Honestly, it is hard. I don't feel having good ability in English. You really know how poor my English. It is also harder because of my characteristic. I'm a perfectionist woman. I want the best result in everything. I'm not ready if i have to fail this exam. Moreover, I never experienced it before not only the test but also fail the exam. I know that I have had pray for the best way of my life, I believed that Allah SWT always give me the best for everything include for my future, but until now, i can't manage my heart. I can't enjoy the training, I get depress on the test. God, please, help me, lead me, to do the best for the test and not thinking about the result because You know the best future of me. If I should continue my study overseas, please help me passing the test. On the other hand, if I should continue my study here, please give me strenght to faced the failed. Amin.